Let me be very honest about it and let me say it all loud and clear!
You defy your feelings. You deny your love. You hoodwink yourself let alone the entire universe. And it is rather alarming.
You are half dead and it pains me. You live but you are living in denial. And I find it cringeworthy.
You keep trying to find an escape. In vain. From yourself. From every object around you.
From everything that has life. From everything that lacks it.
I know you love her. If you didn’t, you wouldn’t be around. Pursuing her. Despite failing at it badly.
Because you are sure that she is a meaningful pursuit rather than just another disposable pleasure.
And you are afraid. For, she is a pursuit that never consummates. She won’t last forever.
You might as well, my dearest one, for her may just be a passing fancy.
Things change. Priorities change. Separation ensues. Distances grow.
Inevitability of change plays its part. Forgetfulness takes its toll.
But remember! Just because something doesn’t last forever doesn’t mean it loses it luster and diminishes its worth. And you totally understand that.
People part and they move on. That’s life. People come and people go, in and out of your life. That’s how it works. Because life goes on, you know, right?
Years lapse by. However, deep within, there is still a part of you that she cohabits.
Memories become your solace. And memories haunt too.
That is exactly when you understand the value of memory.
That is exactly when you understand the idea of immortality of events.
You understand eternity.
When in love, you are in no condition to distinguish between the right and wrong.
And that’s totally human.
And you find no flaws but only virtue.
You overlook all the scars and merely see perfection and grace.
She casts every ray of awareness upon your love for her, the moment you lay your eyes on her.
She casts spells over your mind even during the moments when she is out of sight.
She may not be the perfect personification of beauty. But she is beautiful nevertheless. In her own way.
Like you are saying now and you have said it before.
Nothing looks prettier than her pretty pointed nose and seductively smoggy eyes and sugary smiling lips and slender silvery neck.
And she is full of whims.
You never knew before meeting her that the whims could be as delightful and exciting too.
Imagine loving someone to the level that her caprice starts to sound cute and seem comely.
She is a wild creature.
And there is something beautiful about her wildness, right?
And she is weak. And she is vulnerable.
And she doesn’t even wear false pretensions of power and resilience.
And she is dangerously honest about her vulnerabilities.
And she is a free soul. Isn’t that lovely?
What floors you most is her completeness, and her craving for freedom and her longing for perfection.
Times have left its marks on her mind and scars over her soul.
Know that she was destroyed before.
She needs pampering. Treat her with care and kindness and vigilance.
If she decides to be with you my dearest one, she will do it with all her entirety. Know this now and know this well.
Know that she will have to step over her fears and insecurities to be with you.
And fears don’t fade away in a wink of an eye.
They take time. Give her time.
If she loves you and respects you and entrusts you with an opportunity, treasure it with all your heart and soul.
Don’t ever let her down.
Know her. Read from the pages of her life.
Spend every moment with her as if it were your first. And last.
Be present. Physically and emotionally. And read.
She comes with an emotional baggage. Share it.
Strive to stimulate her thoughts and her emotions.
Plunge into her soul like you will dive into an ocean.
Know this that her love and existence will heal every part of you.
But remember this. Don’t try to fix her. Ever.
She doesn’t need fixing.
She is complete with all her pieces – which could, might as well, be scattered.
Just don’t try to mend her.
Don’t ever treat her like she were a broken woman.
Let her past scars and marks be!
You should just not be the one to inflict more upon her.
She would want to undress her soul in front of you and be utterly herself.
She wants you to look at her like every woman would want to be looked at!
Give her all of you so she could give you all of her.
Revel in her perfect imperfections.
Build her up. Uplift her.
And enjoy the art of reciprocation.
Talk to her about the stars and moon and sun and oceans and entire galaxies and all that is beautiful out there.
Treat her right. Respect her. Protect her.
Allow her the privilege of privacy. Trust her.
And last but not the least, give her all of you so she could give you all of her.
Revel in her perfect imperfections…
‘Someone out there’